Hey Troy, I haven't written in a long time and I feel guilty about it, but I haven't forgretten about you, not at all, I think about you everyday. I need your guidance, your advice. Art left for basic training on the 18th of august, the same day I had a miscarraige that I didn't even know I was pregnant, and last night after homecoming I ended up telling a girl with a huge mouth that when she asked if the rumors that I was pregnant were true, these pregnant rumors keep happening and I was so pissed off that I snapped, and now my whole tiny school is going to find out and I have to face them all tomorrow. Speaking of pregnancy, Rhiannon is pregnant, about 15 weeks now. I feel really alone lately, with Art being gone, he keeps me grounded and silly, like you did. People say women have a habit of finding men like their fathers, I didn't, I found a man like you, and I couldn't be happier, and soon enough I'm going to be staring at this man as I walk down an aisle to him, and I wish you could be there to walk me down the aisle to him. I miss you more than anything in this world, I love you so much. I'll write soon, I promise. XOXOXO. <3

P.S: The picture is of me and Art, I wanted you to see a picture of us.  

Happy 39th Birthday! I wanted that to be the first thing I said to you. I know today is going to be hard, extremely hard and it's only 12:30am. I miss you so much, the pain is almost unbareable. I'm lucky this birthday because I have my boyfriend, Art to take care of me while I'm hopelessly crying over the fact that I will never see you again. Losing you is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, and it's not getting any easier. I thought it would by now. I love you so much. If I hear a song that reminds me of you, see a movie, hear a joke, anything and it automatically gets hard to breathe, I shake, and almost start crying. I love and miss you so much, I wish you were here. <3

It's been a while since I wrote, it's been over two years since you've been gone. I keep waiting for it to get easier, but it hasn't.
On the anniversary of your death I was a wreck, I was crying because all I could think of was you. The main reason I was crying was actually because you are one of the two most wonderful men I've ever met, and the second most wonderful man you'll never get to met. He'll never get to see my crazy uncle Troy that I adore to pieces. This man I speak of is my boyfriend of three months. I know if you would have gotten to meet him the two of you would have gotten along amazingly. He took me to prom about nine days ago, it was spectacular. Then when we were leaving I heard "Just the Way You Are." By Bruno Mars come on. I practically begged to leave faster. He saw my eyes getting watery and saw that I was in emotional pain. I told him about how you had that as three different girls' ringtone in one week and I'd give you shit for it so you gave the song to me because you said I'd always be more perfect than them. That song was just on the radio and is what inspired me to write to you. I can't express how much I miss you. There's a constant hole in my heart since you've been gone. Just thinking of how you will never get to be there for all of these important events in my life breaks my heart completely. I need you back, Uncle Troy. I love you so much. <3

Hiiii Troy, it's almost been two years since you've been gone and it still doesn't feel real. I still cannot believe that you're gone. Oh and how I wish you were here, I miss you so much. I need you so badly right now, you have no idea. I think about you every single day, I look at your picture every single day, and every single day it still hurts. As I'm typing this there are tears streaming down my face, but at the same time I'm smiling. I'm crying because losing you is the worst thing that has ever happened to me and the most painful, but I'm smiling because all of the wonderful times we had together. I love and miss you so much. <3

I haven't wrote in a while, and I feel guilty. I'm sick right now and I remember everytime I was sick you'd do silly things just to make me feel better. <3
I wish you were here, I wish you could spend all these memorable days with us in person. Rhiannon got married, to a guy who is perfect for her. I'm going to my new highschool's homecoming on saturday and oh gosh I just think of Kamyna's homecoming the pictures you took with her on the lounger and us going to In-N-Out while she was at homecoming, I'd much rather spend an hour or even a minute with you again than ever go to homecoming or prom.
I miss you so much it hurts my heart, I can't help, but think of you at random times and want to cry. I have your picture in my school binder and each day I look at it and smile, but on the inside it still hurts.

Troy, I love you. <3